Soiled Hands

We repotted the house plant
The one whose name we don’t know
But who grows and grows
And so we remove parts of her
To give away as healthy daughters

We spilled the potting soil
All around the kitchen
Not giving thought to the work
Of having later to restore order
After the excitement of this earthy enterprise

The rough and sinewy feeling
Of the pungent soil around my fingers
Induced a vision of the digging and planting
We’ll perform next month
In the communal garden near the lake

The vision buoyed my spirit
Giving me sudden release from the
Dark mood of Winter
Which never forgets to envelope us
In its long and icy embrace

Four Youths at the Stream

In temporary freedom from their homes
The four youths prance, splash, run, and jump
Around and over the narrow, rushing creek.

Memories of such moments stir in these old sinews,
Eliciting feelings of joy and innocence.

What fantasies course through these boys, separately and together?
What infinite worlds do they create for themselves in these minutes?
What ever-changing images and scenes erupt from their minds,
Untrammeled by oversight of parents and teachers?

Can there be any greater time in one’s life
Than when we could run and splash and imagine
In complete freedom,
Before the imposition of life’s duties and cares?

Perhaps now, when I can, without the press of time,
Observe these children and recall
My own days of such freedom and imaginings.


Los Gatos Creek at Vasona Lake County Park, Los Gatos, California
12 February 2012

Days in the Hills

The hills rise above the fog that fills the valley
The unseen city is still heard

The trees and rocks, the spent grass, the green shoots
Ignore the city’s muffled roar

Low sunlight reflects from myriad dew-laden webs
Blanketing felled leaves
___

East wind blows swiftly, sure as the eagle flies
Pulling the sun aloft

Gusts roll endlessly, bending the brush, flushing a bobcat
I crouch behind a rock

Wind and trees combine in counterpoint, balancing
A robust embrace

The hill gives purchase to those beings
Unwilling to fly
___

The tall grass pretends to yield to me
Then encloses me

Foxtails nod their welcome, tossing back hot sunlight
But insects rule this day
__

Mountain ridges build silently toward the sky
Hiding dark canyons

Buzzards soar endlessly, from ridge to ridge and back
Searching silently
___

The wise say there are many paths to the one place sought
So as with this hill

This deer path is now my path – up, up through thick brush
Deep full breaths

A startled family gives wide berth to the sweating beast
Who now claims this hilltop
___

The scrub jay awaits on a fence, and as I approach the path’s end
She jumps to a higher perch

The late fall sun, obscured by haze, casts diffuse shadows
Its radiance blunted

The quiet hillside rests—trees, brush, grasses
Only insects move
___

The once familiar path is now rent by the storm’s torren
Showing naked earth

See how the streams flowed, running over man’s patterns
Carving creeks and gullies

But the rock and the oak remain despite the deluge
It is a comfort
___

In time, all will flow downhill with waters seeking their source

But, for now, I have the oak and the rock as unchanging friends
___

Written 1995-2002, Santa Teresa County Park, San Jose, California

Words

"All words are lies:" (possibly George I. Gurdjieff, depicted here)

“All words are lies:” (possibly George I. Gurdjieff, depicted here)

Words, Words, Words. My head is filled with words; my mouth issues streams of words; my pencil scribbles across the page … toward what end? Or is it just a compulsion, nervous or otherwise…or no-wise, given that “nervous” is just another word used to approximate something innate and ineffable?

“To name something is to destroy it:” (unknown)

I wrote this to myself a few years ago:

Words are all I have.
Words are my sword and my shield.
Words, written and spoken, are the tools of my work.

Pity me, while you ponder what others have written on the subject:

CONFUCIUS SAID:

If words are not true, concepts are not right.
If concepts are not right, morality and the arts do not thrive.
If morality and the arts do not thrive, justice miscarries.
If justice miscarries, the nation does not know where to put its feet and hands.
Therefore, disorder in words must not be tolerated.
___

Joseph Conrad

Joseph Conrad

Words, as is well known, are the great foes of reality.
—Joseph Conrad in Under Western Eyes

Words are, of course, the most powerful drug used by mankind.
—Rudyard Kipling

Words are dwarfs, but examples are giants.
—Swiss-German Proverb

So, with all the above and more in mind, here I go with my writing career, starting with a rigorous online writing course. I do not, cannot any longer, allow myself to dream great dreams about what may come of the words I continue to spew. I feel that I must explain the world as I see it in the most concise way to those would listen with their eyes. It is just something I have to do.

I enjoy the play of words. It is as if the Great Everything were an infinitely-sided crystal that I am allowed to see and attempt to describe, one facet at a time.

California, Sierra Nevada, near Donner Pass, September 1998

California, Sierra Nevada, near Donner Pass, September 1998

I am a lucky man, I am
I sit in mountains watching sky
As Moon traverses showing path
For Sun to take in just an hour

The trees, my friends, stand ever straight
And radiate their calmness true
My soul’s enraptured with the touch
Of cool thin air embracing me

My breast does swell with nameless warmth
A joyful feeling calmly felt
How easily I might, I think
Become a tree and friend to all

There is no ending to this poem
Like Nature’s patterns through us all
And we are played as instruments
In this celestial symphony …